I just returned from dropping Everett off for his first day of school. He wasn't feeling well yesterday, so I wasn't sure if I'd be taking him today or not. However, he woke up this morning and seemed to be feeling really good. He's been on allergy medicine this week, but this morning he seemed much better - no runny nose, pink eyes, etc. - so I decided not to give him his medicine. I hope that wasn't a mistake!
When we got to his class, he seemed pretty happy … until I handed him over to Miss Debbie. He immediately started bawling! In my angst, and my attempt to not prolong the separation / leaving process, I promptly told Debbie goodbye and she walked away with E while I said a couple things to Kirsten, the assistant teacher. I then stood outside the door and heard him continue to cry. I had to fight back tears … I had no idea that would be so hard on me! I could hear them consoling him and they were doing a really good job and he started to quiet down, so I left. By the time I reached my car I realized … “I never told my sweet baby goodbye ... or gave him a kiss ... or told him I’d be back for him later”. I felt like the worst Mommy in the world! Again, I was fighting back tears. I wanted to turn around and go back to love on my little boy. :(
I’m sure this will get easier … it has to! And I’m sure it won’t be long before Everett is running into his classroom without looking back to say goodbye … and then I’ll be sad about that!
2 o'clock won't get here soon enough! I can't wait to see my little boy and hear how his day went. Hopefully Mommy's first day will be productive and she won't spend too much of it worrying! Better get some work done while I can ....
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